on fire

i am on fire now..

i am pissed off with everything!!

#%$%#@#!%$^%@

argh!! i hate this feeling.. this in-between feeling. i feel like hanging. everything feels so in-between right now..


pretty awful day today. just hadn't been right since the moment i woke up.
i wish i could find something to vent my anger..

maybe i should go scrub the toilet sparkling clean..maybe i should food binge.. maybe i should sing out loud..

BUT I CAN'T EVEN DO ANY OF THE ABOVE.. WHICH MADE ME EVEN MORE PISSED!!

i can't clean the toilet when my body's aching.. i can't binge because i am purging.. i can't sing out loud when i can't even breathe well..

wth?!? why everything so in-between?!?!

even the treatment i received from those around me are so in-between!!