just unwell

i've been on hiatus again..

not only from my blog, but also from Uni.

i know most of you might be wondering why, well... it's pretty simple. i am unwell. haven't been really well for some time. situation got a bit more worse now that i have conjunctivitis. i practically can't go anywhere without my sunglasses.

the shades make me feel "blind" at the moment. still not used to wearing shades even at home.

but don't worry, especially Mimi and Bao, i'll be just fine at home. :)
i'm trying to make myself busy with CNY preparations. it takes away whatever time i have left to think and worry about unnecessary stuffs, which is good! the last thing i need to do now is to worry myself to death about nothing at all.

i'll be back after CNY... so don't miss me too much. have lots of fun during CNY, everyone!

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i never know what to call him on my blog.. i finally figured out.. let's just call him, xm. it's his name after all..

he has been very supportive all this time.. although there are some days i am too much and too annoying. a few times, he was a bit impatient. but after a while, he would talk to me nicely again.

i am really glad that he is there for me.. i know how hard i have been on him for the past one month. i have practically been a monster, and i wish to apologize. sorry, xm!

he brought me out for walks, skipped work just so i wouldn't be alone. it always feels nice when he is by my side. i don't feel sad or angry that much. we did some CNY shopping, and instead of buying his clothes (i have bought mine quite some time ago), he bought me a sweater because i fell sick and was cold. it wasn't really cheap, though it was on 50% discount.

it wasn't the sweater that made me happy. it was his actions.

for the past 10 months, he has been there for me all the way.
i understand fully how it feels like to be adored, and loved unconditionally.

* he drove me back to KL before the sem starts, all the way from Johor, just so i don't have to take the bus.
* he fetched me back to Johor from KL at the end of my last paper.
* he peels my prawns and fish for me all the time.
* he brought me to eat my favourite food, even late at night, just because i called and said i crave for it.
* he ate steamboat with me, twice in 3 days, because i wanted to.
* he eats my favourite peppermint ice cream, even though he hates it, because he says the things he shares with me is always much nicer and sweeter.
* he rubs my hands and feet when he knows i am cold.
* he can finish my sentences.
* he knows how to make me smile when i am really upset or serious.
* he worries about my health so much that he skipped class just to bring me to the doctor today.
* he rather fall sick than to see me in pain without medication.
* he covers my head with his hands when it drizzles suddenly.. though it's not really effective.
* he rather buys me clothings than to buy for himself. why? he says it's more worth it.
* he buys breakfast/supper for my whole family/ anyone who's at home when he buys for me.
* he comes to my house to check on me when i am sick before he leaves for school.
* he plans for the future with me in every part of the plan.
* he lets me eat Fried Calamari everytime, no matter what their prices are.
* he tells me "Just order what you like. Don't look at the prices." all the time when we're eating out.
* he brings my brother out and treats him like his own brother.
* he encourages me to do the things i love, although he doesn't agree with everything i do.

i have never had anyone done so much for me before. it feels good and comfortable to know that someone appreciates my existence, and loves me unconditionally...because i am myself.

just thinking of him makes me smile..