WHAT'S PISSING ME OFF???

yesterday, an old aunty screwed me outside McDonald's Section 14. She thought i was cutting queue and stealing her cab... the truth was, i didn't know there was a queue because nobody looked like they were queueing!! i was in a hurry to go for Dr. Selva's class at 12pm and i was already late by then, so maybe i didn't bother to really look properly of those people were really queueing or just loitering.

before you judge me and say why didn't i leave home earlier, I DID! i came out of house at 11.25am, waited for a cab outside my place for freaking 15 minutes, but NONE STOPPED for me. so i decided to walk out to 14 and try my luck. BAD CHOICE! stupid aunty scolded me in Cantonese, which i can understand but cannot converse in! So she obviously didn't understand when i tried to apologise and explain that i didn't know there was a queue in Mandarin. she kept on shouting at me and the word i remembered most was "Sei Yan Po".. T_T

i almost cried on the spot.

i reached uni late. didn't go for class. got bad reviews. and what sucks the most was yesterday night i cried like shit for almost 6 hours. i had a terrible headache and popped 4 panadol pills within 5 hours, which is VERY WRONG!

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today.. oh well.. started off quite nicely.. until some people decided to piss me off again.

called A to ask her to help me get something. A said she can't and behaved like a drama queen, saying she's very super busy because she has to send C for tuition. Fine. so i asked to speak to M. M wasn't in. she's outstation and will only be back by tonight. then A started harping and harping on why can't i just go back and get it myself.. and i had to explain again and again and again (don't know how many times i repeated my situation to her) that it'd actually save me a lot of trouble to get it now, rather than later. A behaved like a freaking "niii niii" and started going all crazy over what i said. i got so pissed that i just screwed her up.

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then time passed. B called and talked for some while. then i called B. then things went wrong. i don't understand why some people JUST CANNOT SEEM TO UNDERSTAND that i am waiting for a definite reply, so that i can inform the other people on the other side to ensure that there are no trouble when picking up things for me tomorrow.

enuff said. i am getting more pissed off as i'm typing this.

i hate it when people make things difficult for me when all i ask for is something easy.
i hate it when people do not understand my reasons for doing certain things.
i hate it when my reasons are always deemed as silly or dumb or idiotic.
i hate it when people always think it is alright to let me wait for them.. WHEN IT IS NOT AT ALL!
i hate it when people put me as secondary importance when right now in that particular situation, I should be the priority.
i hate it when the people i need are always not there to help when i need them, be it M or B.
i hate it when whatever i say ALWAYS fall on deaf ears.
i hate it when people around me act like they are all great and responsible when they are not.

I HATE EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE I SEE AND I FEEL FOR RIGHT NOW...

AND I FEEL I HAVE THE RIGHT TO BE THIS DAMN EMO AFTER ALL THE BLOODY SHIT I HAVE BEEN THROUGH FOR THE PAST 1 MONTH..

Campaign was all nice and nice and nice... but i hate the toll it has taken on me. i hate the politics. i hate THAT ONE PARTICULAR BITCH. i hate that guy who stood beside me during campaign launch.

i am angry at a lot of people in my group. mainly because i feel they are really shallow. and it disgusts me to even think that they can be so selfish and arrogant and full of themselves. yucks!!
phui!!

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i think every time i really need someone, only MC, Jaime and this blog are there for me.

gosh. i miss them.