truth hurts but thank you, my darlings

a lot of you might or might not know this, but i am taking a long break from my relationship with babiloo. we have both decided to stay single for a while till he comes back in August, and we'll have a talk, see where we stand and how it goes.

i know a lot of you feel my pain and are really worried about me. I am worried about myself too. it feels heavy when you let go 10% of your life. (we were together for 2 years and 5months, i'm 20. Hence 10%) i don't really know if i can ever love someone like that again, it feels great to be loved and to love someone back, but the way i used to love, i'm quite unsure about that. i need time.

a lot of you whom i've told were shocked and some, devastated. i am really dreadfully sorry for putting all of you through this ride with me.

Emily - thanks for listening to my cries. thanks for all the encouragement. could not ask for a better roomie.

Thomas - thanks for the phonecall all the way from Penang. you really are the best bud anyone can ask for. hugs. love you, bro.

Gerald - thanks for the comfort and also phonecall from Singapore. know you were shocked. really appreciate the fact that i have such a concerned friend. thanks for online chats at night to make me feel better too.

Neeshaa - love you so much babe. know you were worried sick about me. even asked me not to listen to songs. but i am fine, really. i will be.

Hank - thanks for double-checking with me my intentions. :)

Christine - sorry for sending you such a shocking news in the morning. hugs for standing by me, eventhough i know you always want me to be much stronger than this. from your SMSes to online chats, i reallu appreciate everything that you have done for me for the past one year. without your encouragement, i don't think i would have gotten this far. i love you babe. thanks so so much.

Liyun, MC, Beng, Jaime - really really love you guys for all the encouragements. from MSN to friendster. i will be the strong sotong that you all want me to be! i will be fine. so glad to have all of you as my buddies! muacks. hugs. miss you tons.

Justin - thanks for making my first working day after the break up a nice one. without your jokes and "kisses", it would have been terrible. i like the way you actually keep "comforting" me saying that i still have you even though you were joking in a plain thick-skinned way. it somehow made me smile. thanks a lot. really glad that my intern partner is you!

Janis - your blurriness and your willingness to actually listen said it all. it was more than enough to have a friend like you sitting beside me when i needed you. Thanks for all the "hoo~~!!" jokes. they are really entertaining. you got me laughing to tears. hugs. i am really glad i have known you, even if sometimes you like to bully me with your "tofu" stories. hugs.

Vic - so sorry i didn't tell you this even though you sensed something was wrong. I will be fine, just like i told you. I am almost perfectly fine. all i need is time. hugs. send my regards to Kelvin and do tell him he can flirt on Facebook with me now. throw the dogs over!! :)

everyone who already knew or just knew, i will be fine. so is babiloo. we still do contact every alternate days. we're best friends for now. who knows what might lies ahead in our future?

a really big thanks to all of you!! HUGS HUGS HUGS

i love you, my darlings!